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I am waiting for it to be time to wash off my face mask before bed, so, a meme...

A - Age: the big 4-0
B - Bed size: Queen - can't bear smaller
C - Chore you hate: I've gotten much more sanguine about all chores since I started "unfucking", but I refuse to dust.
D - Dog's name: I have never had a dog of my own, but my cats' names have been Mycat, Goose, and Inigo
E - Essential start to your day item(s): I must shower and have breakfast
F - Favorite color: purple at the moment. I go through phases.
G - Gold or silver: silver
H - Height: 5'6"
I - Instruments you play: I took piano lessons as a child
J - Job title: I honestly have no fucking clue. front office staff?
K - Kisses or hugs: yes?
L - Home: I wish I lived on the road. I live in a rented apartment.
M - Mood: intensely frustrated
N - Nicknames: River, and my mom sometimes calls me Sar (rhymes with dare)
O - Surgeries you've had: I had my ears pinned back
P - Pet Peeves: passive agressive shit
Q - Quote from a movie: My teen angst bullshit has a body count.
R - Right or left handed: Right.
S - Siblings: one brother
T - Time you wake up: 6:20, except now it will be 5:30 on work days :(
U - Underwear: cotton panties
V - Vegetable you dislike: pretty much all of them
W - Ways you run late: tumblr. twitter.
X - X-rays you've had: Teeth, foot, arm, collar bone, spine
Y - Yummy food you make: all kinds of breakfast, and I've been loving my gumbo.
Z - Zoo favourite - baby tigers

I was going to paint my nails while I watched NCIS, but I decided to do this 21-first-lines meme I've seen on my flist. Apparently I am keen on scene setting from the get-go :)

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I kind of want to do one of these with last lines, actually, but will leave that for another time :D

Total number of fics: 14, with a 15th that is 12k but still not finished

Total wordcount: ~113,000 counting the one in progress

Total number of fandoms: Only three this year: Bandom, Teen Wolf, and One Direction

My favorite story of mine this year: I think it's Let the Darkness Lead you Home That is definitely the one I am most proud of in terms of what I did with it and what it did for my writing.

My best story: Let the Darkness Lead you Home.

Story most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion: I definitely wouldn't complain about any story being underappreciated, but I always wish there were more love for femslash in general, so maybe It's About This. Mostly, though, because it ended up being underappreciated by me in that I never wrote the longer story around it that I hoped to.

Most fun story: I was going to say We're All Okay, but then I realized I posted that on December 30th, so I wrote it last year. So instead, it's my other HS AU, Nothing Comes as Easy as You. I may have a massive crush on HS Frankie.

Most sexy story: I suppose that depends on what in particular you find sexy. Almost everything I write is NC17 and meant to be sexy. I definitely like It's About This, and Everyone's a Junkie, and the one where Gerard makes teenage Frank come three times in a row, Nothing Comes as Easy as You.

"Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story: Given my meness, I don't think there's anything that counts as wrong. This year was by leaps and bounds tamer than any other since I arrived in fandom six years ago. I did write some incest with figging and ~accidental sex, which maybe counts?

Story with single sexiest moment: Maybe Frank remembering back when Gerard used to secretly rub one out under Frank's shirt back in the van days, in Quiet Time

Story with single sweetest moment: I really really love when Gerard brings Frank waffles in the shower after his flight back from New Jersey in This Heart's on Fire.

Most unintentionally *telling* story: I write sweetly kinky porn. I'm not sure any of it is unintentionally telling.

Fic that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: Let the Darkness Lead you Home was a challenge to write because I had to look at AU versions of everyone and find the fanon them in there. I also changed my views on Jackson and on Scott in Snapping at your Heels I think. In that I felt like I got to know them better.

Biggest disappointment: I didn't finish my Derek/Stiles fic in time to post before the end of the year. And I have found it harder to write in general. My goal for this year was to write more femslash. I finished one story. I've written a couple of paragraphs on a few more stories, but I don't know that they will come to anything.

Biggest surprise: That One Direction happened quite so abruptly to my face. But given that I am me, and it's a fandom comprised of teenaged boys who quite literally cannot stop touching each other, this should not actually be a surprise at all.

Hardest story to write: this damn in-progress Teen Wolf story. I think Stiles is funny, and I'm enjoying him, but idk. I think I just don't really see how he and Derek go in a story that is pretty much canon compliant. I should have gone with some kind of AU.

Easiest story to write: I wrote That's What Friends are For, which is a Danny/Jackson story, in less than a day. I miss writing like that. Sadly, that kind of writing is a lot easier when one is in grad school for writing than it is when one is working. It was also pretty easy to write Young Harold and the Winter Palace but I am not sure not!fic counts in this category.

This year's theme and the story that demonstrates it most: I think probably the theme for this year was Frank and Gerard are horny for each other, since that's the point of half the stories I wrote this year.

The Fanfiction Writer’s Questionnaire
♥ List all the fandoms you have written in:
Brokeback Mountain, Supernatural, House, CSI, CSI:NY, Alias, Buffy, Deadwood, NCIS:LA, Prison Break, Highway, Firefly, Star Trek, Dark Angel, Desperate Housewives, Dr. Who, Garden State, Ginger Snaps Back, Glee, Grey's Anatomy, Heathers, Hell Cats, Jeeves and Wooster, A Knight's Tale, Live Free or Die Hard, Merlin, NCIS, Ocean's Franchise, Pirates of the Caribbean, Roswell, The State Within, Sucker Punch, Thelma and Louise, Torchwood, Tigertrapped/Spooks(MI5), White Collar, X-Men (movieverse), CWRPS, Adam Lambert, Pundit RPS, Glee RPS, Bandom, Actor RPS. But my big three have been SPN/CWRPS, Adam Lambert, and Bandom, with House and Tiger Trapped close behind.

♥ How many published fics have you written?
significantly more than three hundred, I'm pretty sure, ranging from true drabbles to 70k words.

♥ In terms of wordcount, in which fandom have you written the most?
there is no easy way to determine that because I still haven't gotten all my SPN fic onto ao3 yet. I have written by far the most stories in SPN, but my word count with those averaged about 2.5k words. Adam and Bandom I'm closer to 10-15k average.

♥ At the moment, which one of your fics is your favorite/you are the most proud of? (you can include unpublished fics)
That is a split between You Only Live Forever and Let the Darkness Lead You Home, both of which are big bangs, and both of which I worked on for more than nine months.

♥ Which writer (fanfiction or not) inspires your own work?
I am inspired everywhere. I have such a phenomenal community of writers around me, and some of them compose sentences like dreams, some kick you in the heart with emotions, some write smoking hot sex, some have such great things to say about process, some poke me to work harder... on and on and on. Fandom is like the best grad school--one where no one looks at you funny for writing gay porn.

♥ What was your first fanfic about?
My first fanfic was about Lureen's dad having hired a hitman to kill Jack in Brokeback Mountain. I ended up re-working it later that year and finally posting it as a Yuletide stocking stuffer.

♥ Out of all the characters whose POV you have written, which one do you feel you identify the most with?
All of my POV characters are me and I am all of them. Though I feel most connected to my teenagers, I think. Arrested development and all that. And definitely the ones I've written the most. Sam, Dean, Adam, Tommy, Frank, and Gerard. And Julian, though that was more an RP situation, and is weird and different for me.

♥ What do you feel is your biggest challenge when writing?
Depends on the day. Sometimes it's hearing the voices, sometimes it's getting past my need for every word to be the perfect word right out of the gate, sometimes it's finding time when I'm not exhausted, often lately it's tumblr.

♥ Do you generally outline your fics or do you prefer to write spontaneously and then revise?
never never never. On my really long ones I'll do notecards in Scrivener once I've written the bulk of it, but I almost never know what is going to happen in a story before I start, and very rarely before I'm half-way done. Generally I hear a sentence in my head, and then I write it down and hear another one, and then another, and it builds from there. I rely on my characters to know what to do.

♥ Which one of your fanfics has the most hits? the most comments? the most kudos? (if applicable)
The fic with the most hits is a false high, because one of the people in the story found it and tweeted a link. But the one that has the most naturally generated hits is You Only Live Forever. The most comments are on my Sam/Dean time travel stories, I'm pretty sure. The most Kudos are on my Danny/Jackson teenwolf story. Teen Wolf is a crazy big fandom.

♥ What proportion, if any, of your fics are rated M or above (# of M-plus fics/ total # of fics)?
lololol. I don't know the percentage exactly, but I'd be surprised if more than 10% of my fic is below M and if more than 20% is below NC17.

♥ Finally, tease us with the title of one of your upcoming fics:
Since I usually choose a title as I am posting it, I cannot tell you an upcoming title, but the file name of the fic I'm most likely to finish next is Because Stiles.

The Fanfiction Writer’s Questionnaire
♥ List all the fandoms you have written in:
Brokeback Mountain, Supernatural, House, CSI, CSI:NY, Alias, Buffy, Deadwood, NCIS:LA, Prison Break, Highway, Firefly, Star Trek, Dark Angel, Desperate Housewives, Dr. Who, Garden State, Ginger Snaps Back, Glee, Grey's Anatomy, Heathers, Hell Cats, Jeeves and Wooster, A Knight's Tale, Live Free or Die Hard, Merlin, NCIS, Ocean's Franchise, Pirates of the Caribbean, Roswell, The State Within, Sucker Punch, Thelma and Louise, Torchwood, Tigertrapped/Spooks(MI5), White Collar, X-Men (movieverse), CWRPS, Adam Lambert, Pundit RPS, Glee RPS, Bandom, Actor RPS. But my big three have been SPN/CWRPS, Adam Lambert, and Bandom, with House and Tiger Trapped close behind.

♥ How many published fics have you written?
significantly more than three hundred, I'm pretty sure, ranging from true drabbles to 70k words.

♥ In terms of wordcount, in which fandom have you written the most?
there is no easy way to determine that because I still haven't gotten all my SPN fic onto ao3 yet. I have written by far the most stories in SPN, but my word count with those averaged about 2.5k words. Adam and Bandom I'm closer to 10-15k average.

♥ At the moment, which one of your fics is your favorite/you are the most proud of? (you can include unpublished fics)
That is a split between You Only Live Forever and Let the Darkness Lead You Home, both of which are big bangs, and both of which I worked on for more than nine months.

♥ Which writer (fanfiction or not) inspires your own work?
I am inspired everywhere. I have such a phenomenal community of writers around me, and some of them compose sentences like dreams, some kick you in the heart with emotions, some write smoking hot sex, some have such great things to say about process, some poke me to work harder... on and on and on. Fandom is like the best grad school--one where no one looks at you funny for writing gay porn.

♥ What was your first fanfic about?
My first fanfic was about Lureen's dad having hired a hitman to kill Jack in Brokeback Mountain. I ended up re-working it later that year and finally posting it as a Yuletide stocking stuffer.

♥ Out of all the characters whose POV you have written, which one do you feel you identify the most with?
All of my POV characters are me and I am all of them. Though I feel most connected to my teenagers, I think. Arrested development and all that. And definitely the ones I've written the most. Sam, Dean, Adam, Tommy, Frank, and Gerard. And Julian, though that was more an RP situation, and is weird and different for me.

♥ What do you feel is your biggest challenge when writing?
Depends on the day. Sometimes it's hearing the voices, sometimes it's getting past my need for every word to be the perfect word right out of the gate, sometimes it's finding time when I'm not exhausted, often lately it's tumblr.

♥ Do you generally outline your fics or do you prefer to write spontaneously and then revise?
never never never. On my really long ones I'll do notecards in Scrivener once I've written the bulk of it, but I almost never know what is going to happen in a story before I start, and very rarely before I'm half-way done. Generally I hear a sentence in my head, and then I write it down and hear another one, and then another, and it builds from there. I rely on my characters to know what to do.

♥ Which one of your fanfics has the most hits? the most comments? the most kudos? (if applicable)
The fic with the most hits is a false high, because one of the people in the story found it and tweeted a link. But the one that has the most naturally generated hits is You Only Live Forever. The most comments are on my Sam/Dean time travel stories, I'm pretty sure. The most Kudos are on my Danny/Jackson teenwolf story. Teen Wolf is a crazy big fandom.

♥ What proportion, if any, of your fics are rated M or above (# of M-plus fics/ total # of fics)?
lololol. I don't know the percentage exactly, but I'd be surprised if more than 10% of my fic is below M and if more than 20% is below NC17.

♥ Finally, tease us with the title of one of your upcoming fics:
Since I usually choose a title as I am posting it, I cannot tell you an upcoming title, but the file name of the fic I'm most likely to finish next is Because Stiles.

So I may have been talking to dreamlittleyo tonight (YAY) and we may have been discussing how we had seen that AO3 meme floating around and were going to do it but forgot. So we decided that we should do it now, even though everyone has moved on to something else by now. Because that's how we roll apparently :D

I think? the idea is you list your top ten fics in AO3 sorted by hit count and then maybe discuss them a little if you want. If it's not, close enough. ( meme! )

So there you have it. top ten by hitcount. In 'other things that interest me that it's easy to discover on AO3' news: out of 113 posted fics, one is >50k words, 3 are between 20k and 50k (plus one I co-wrote with dreamlittleyo, and 3 are between 10k and 20k. All the rest are under 10k. The fact that I can't even write a PWP without it topping 10k anymore is boggling to me.

from pinkfinity and poor_choices

First TV show I had self-insertion fantasies about:
Dukes of Hazzard or maybe The Donnie and Marie Show. I was four or five.

First fandom in which I interacted (online and in person) with other fans:
X-files (though I had no idea it was called a fandom at the time, and I didn't hear the word fanfiction for another ten years)

Pairing in the first slash fanfiction I read:
Buffy/Faith (the first m/m fic I read I also wrote, and it was Jack/Ennis)

First RPS/RPF I read:
Hugh Laurie/Robert Sean Leonard

First fanfiction I read that made me think, YES, this is exactly the kind of fanfiction I'd like to write...
It sure as hell wasn't the buffy/faith fic (which is to say I have no idea)

Pairing in the first fanfiction I wrote:
Jack/Ennis (Brokeback Mountain)

First OTP:
Pilot/Jack (Highway 2001)

First RPS/F OTP:
Jon Stewart/Stephen Colbert

First fannish friend I met in person:
talia_sparkle and I still remember sitting on the floor of Victoria Station, leaning against the glass of WH Smith, while I waited for her train time to come in.

First character I formally roleplayed:
I have never formally roleplayed, but writing Julian was pretty close.

I opened gdocs the other day for the first time in ages because I use Scrivener to write now, and I realized that there are things languishing on there. This seemed the perfect opportunity to dust them off and see what's what. The idea is this:

Post the first sentence (or three or random large chunk) from three WIPs you're currently working on (and when I say working on, I mean: haven't completely given up on). Then invite people to ask questions about your WIPs. With any luck, you'll get talking about writing, and the motivation to take that WIP one step closer to completion will appear as if by magic!

( I'm not giving up on you... )

Apparently I'm addicted to end-of-year memes :)

( that one that's going around )

Happy New Year to you all! <3333

It's that time of year again--LOVE MEME time! (or as I like to call it, time to open a second browser window) You should go and play and leave some anon love for people if you're feeling so inclined, and please post a link to your own thread in your journal, because it's 28 pages already :D

My Thread

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