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I have Smallville on with the sound off, because I can't watch it before SPN because they always air evil spoilers, and for some reason there keeps being a horrible blue light shining in my eye.


I am bajiggity with nerves about tonight for some reason.

See, now that's what colour scrubs should be. Not white. um. oh. I was like, why does she have a picture of Jeffrey Dean Morgan? Then I realized it was John. *facepalm*

Sam brushing his teeth at a lake makes me happy. Dean sleeping in the front and having trouble getting out makes me even happier.

HOLY FUCK. HOLY FUCK. HOLY FUCK. HIS SON? this is a shock. the good kind. For me, anyway. idk about the boys :)

Dean's preparations are killing me. HOW IS JANUARY 1990 9 months before 1992? just curious.

Dean is INSANELY jealous. Jensen is doing an AMAZING JOB with it. God, this is HEARTBREAKING. absolutely heartbreaking. John's desperation to have a NORMAL family, his inability to give that to his poor boys, only able to have it those few times a year with his other child. And Dean's heartbreak over the whole thing. I can feel his pain oozing off the screen. and no need for tears. I am pretty much loving Sam's reactions too. His need to be logical, to follow the research. He also, I'm sure, feels like the disappointment ship sailed years ago, and this probably feels like just another log on the fire.

RO SHAM BO.

Oh, Dean, every time indeed. ILU.

omg horrible toombs flashback. DNW. That episode scared the shite out of me.

I love how Dean can look at Sam without even looking at him.

Oh, DEAN. Oh, baby. I am actually crying. I haven't cried all season. And Dean wanting to honor his dad's wishes, even with everything that has happened, is making me cry.

Oh, SAM. "I heard what Dean said." Here, let me give you a gun, let me turn you into an angry boy bent on revenge.

Dean has a law and order vibe. I love that a lot. I also seriously love John in the newspaper picture.

Sam? why do you look S1 terrified? is it because you suddenly get to be the big brother? And is that also part of what's been motivating you? I can't really believe that's only just occurring to me now. You see an opportunity to matter in the way Dean has been denying you since he came back from hell, PLUS in the way that has always been denied you by dint of your birth order.

But ohhhhhh. You want to use the kid as bait? You really want him to relive your life? It wasn't enough that this life did what it did to you? That is COLD.

Understandable, really, but cold. De you even HEAR yourself? Dean wants to know too. Are you THAT desperate to have a brother who trusts you?

Oh, boys! both your points are so very pointy. the sad thing is that because neither of you are wrong, both of you are wrong.

*gags* sloppy Joe? REALLY, DEAN?

What happened to the crowbar Dean used to get in here?

HOFUCK. I was suspicious when he was such a good shot, but somehow not suspicious that he was a THING. Why was I not suspicious of that?

HAHAHAHA TMobile does not encourage vandalism, do not try. Oh, lawsuit culture.

mmm mmm bondage Sammy! Topping from the bottom, there, Sammy?

OMG BLOODPLAY. KINK KINK KINK.

jesus. I think I just came in my pants when Dean did that pull-up thing.

OOOOOKAY. not liking the bloodplay anymore. *gags*

deep cuts, DNW.

FUCK, DEAN PLEASE TO BE SAVING YOUR BROTHER NOW.

and just as a point of interest, when you have arterial spurting on both arms, you can't really put effective pressure on the wounds yourself. I mean, I guess if you cross your arms and press them together, but... okay, basically I just do not like it. *stops thinking about it*

MAYBE WE COULD BRING HIM BACK? SAM, HAVE YOU LOST YOUR EVERLOVING MIND? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHAT THE HELL?

"You can take it any way you want." oh. dear.