I found I can't just pick one answer for the 2nd question because my overall feeling is really "It depends". It depends on whether or not I liked what I came out with, whether or not a day away from it has changed my opinion on it. Sometimes when I sleep on a fic my opinion will immediately switch from one side to another, or sometimes not at all. My beta comments I will usually be like 80% in agreement with and 20% ignoring and saying "artistic license" t myself about. It doesn't make me hate or love a fic more, just gives me an outside/objective insight into it which is always needing during the editing process. If I hate the fic but the beta loved it, it doesn't make me love it; and vice versa.

And random sort of thingy on the "I'm ashamed to tell people I don't like my creative output"-question: I dunno if "ashamed" is what I feel? And massively editing and re-phrasing this, I think in the past when I try to say to others that I think I missed the mark, I don't always get straight answers, and I worry people think I am fishing for compliments, when I'm rather fishing for concrit, if that makes sense?